I have been having a rough time this past month. Besides my usual (and sometimes dramatic) shifts in mood, I have been suffering from an eye infection. This eye infection started out where it felt as though I had road salt in my eyes but it progressively worsened to the point where it has driven me nearly to the edge of sanity — which considering that I am already somewhat insane, isn’t saying much, I suppose.
Anyway, I spent yesterday at home, overwhelmed by the world in general and unfortunately out of reach of wifi, when my eyes became so painful — itchy, burning and dry — that I became absolutely frantic and thought I’d lose my mind. Later that evening, my skin broke out in hives, even in my mouth (!), which made everything even worse. Whether the hives were the result of my many allergies or from anxiety caused by my painful eyes, I don’t know, although antihistamines did eventually relieve my itching skin.
So I talked to the pharmacist today about my eyes, which are still incredibly painful, hoping there was some over-the-counter remedy that I could use to relieve my symptoms. Well, no, there isn’t. The pharmacist took one look at my eyes and immediately started to scold me.
“Why haven’t you seen a doctor about that?”
“Um .. because I don’t have a doctor?” I said hesitantly, not wanting to tell him that I not only don’t have a doctor, but I also don’t have any health insurance, nor do I have any money to pay for (yet another) hospital bill or ER visit.
“Well, you should have seen a doctor three weeks ago,” he replied. “You need antibiotics now, because this infection won’t go away otherwise. You only have two eyes and you should take care of them. This infection is damaging your eyes!”
GAH! I have almost never been sick in my adult life (unless you consider the minor fact that I am insane), and now, it seems that I am always sick, or recovering from some sickness or other. Why me? Why now?