There is irony in doing research on women engineering faculty members, and being a woman faculty member in engineering. One side of my brain tells me that the research says women (and men) who self-sacrifice for their students and colleagues burn themselves out, and instead should figure out how to say no more often; the other side of my brain tells me, “You’ve worked through the last 2 weekends and are tired, but your 4 students and postdoc need work plans from you before you leave for a conference in Europe on Friday, and you have 2 reviews for IJEE due Friday, and you have to read another student’s dissertation by Thursday morning, and there will be more edits to do on the annual report, and oh by the way you have 2 paper drafts due really really soon, so you really had better get working on them.”
Another irony is that it is sometimes this ADVANCE grant – a grant focused on figuring out ways to help more women be successful at faculty careers in STEM – that is helping to burn me out at the moment. ?
I’m tired, and I don’t want to work.