My kid is growing, and I’m of course ambivalent about it. It’s not that she’s becoming some sort of giant—she’s still a tiny little thing, but now she picks up books and starts reading them. When she does, I usually start shouting excitedly, but she reminds me that I’m not allowed to be excited. She wants to enjoy her new powers in peace.
She’s outgrowing her car seat, especially when bundled up for winter. And with Midwestern winters being what they are, she’s bundled more mornings than not. It’s time for me to buy a booster.
When I wake up in the morning, I take my shower, shave, get dressed, and walk into my daughter’s room. I turn on a lamp and wait a moment; in a minute or so, she stirs, stretches, and reaches up to me. I pick her up, which is getting harder and harder, and I walk downstairs and plop her on the couch. I have to place the pillow just right and turn on the TV with the lights off. This routine allows her to wake up without freaking the fuck out.
While she slowly joins the day, I make her breakfast and get her snack and lunch into her backpack. After breakfast, dressing, and ablutions comes the bundling. I put on her scarf, hat, gloves, and jacket, then strap on her pack. She looks like a little astronaut.
And when I drop her off at school and she walks away from the car, she is again impossibly small. The little package of winter clothes topped by an impossibly large backpack reminds me of how little my precious kiddo is. I’ve been accused of spoiling her; just try and stop me.