Um, hi. Apparently I've been gone for a while. Yeah. Sorry about that. Life's been a bit crazy around here lately, and I feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water. I'm not sleeping. I'm not taking care of myself. I'm sick. I'm stressed to the gills. I have way too much to do. I feel like I work all the damn time. Hmmm, maybe that's because I *do* work all the damn time.
In addition to not having time to
breathe blog, I haven't really been in the headspace to blog. I have a ton of stuff on my mind, but I'm not sure how to blog it. It's all about tenure, of course: the price of it on my health and relationships, the continued hazing aspects of it, my yearning for a less-encompassing job, the weirdness of starting to think about your long-term relationship with your institution, and how who I consider to be my "peers" is changing as I go up for tenure. It's all swirling around in my head, but not in a way that I can easily put into words. And of course there's a lot of student stuff going on that I feel like I should talk about, and the phone call incident that refuses to be resolved (still).
The good news is that things are starting to calm down and slow down a bit---or at least, that's how it looks now. And I think sitting down and blogging about some of the stuff that's on my mind will help me focus more clearly on what needs to get done. So you'll hear from me soon---I promise. For now, I'm going to do something good for myself for a bit before I get back to that huge pile o' work.
So sorry to hear you are still overwhelmed and unable to catch your breath. I hope things really do calm down a lot, and soon!
Good luck! I'm having the same swirly head feeling right now....only from the non-tenured track side of the...um....tracks?
Just hugs and love, Jane. I hope you get some peace and calm soon. If they don't give you tenure I will come after them with a mob bearing torches and pitchforks...